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It's been a while since I wrote something down here but I need to talk about something and I can't use my other blog because it has too many readers. Since only my closest friends still have a link to here it's ok haha.
Soooo... It all starts around 6 years ago. I was in sec 2 and I was in the school's orchestra but around December I learned that keeping playing the flute would only make my orthodontist treatment more painful so I had no choice to change instruments. After a talk with my music teacher, it was decided that I would start in january to play bass.
There was already a bass player and he was quite popular. People in my class thought I changed instruments because I was jealous so people started picking on me until the teacher cleared up the situation in class. But one guy kept pushing me around, stealing my music sheets and calling names.
In the meantime, F, would never talk to me so I was convinced he was behind the bullying and I started to really really hate him.
Finally came summer.
When school started again, F, started to talk to me and he was being nice to me. I doubted his intentions at first but I found out later that he had nothing to do with the guy who was picking on me so we slowly became friends, abd later I developped a crush on him.
I was then crushed at the end of the year when I learned he was was moving to France. I was really really sad. The next year he came to our Xmas concert and I remember crying backstage in my best friend's arms saying: " why does he have to be here tonight? Can't he just let me forget about him before showing up like that? "
Somehow we kept contact via msn... I don't really know how it happened or when because I never had his email when we were in school together.
He recently came back to live in Montreal and to go to UdeM we've been talking a lot since then and he confessed to me that except for another classmate from the orchestra, I'm the only friend he has left. In 4 years, most of his bandmates and closest friends stopped taking to him. It was the opposite with me; we talked more and more when he left.
I feel very confused right now; all these emotions from years ago are still a bit around. You can't just erase someone your heart. And to know that I'm one of the o my perso left for him makes me feel very special... I never imagined he would say that because he's bit that kind of person... He kinda has the same personnality has Ryo-chan! I swear, he's a meanie and he plays bass ( bass is a guitar FYI)... Abd he's chibi!
Aaaaaaaaaah confusion!
Anyway I can't wait to see him... He said he grew up a bit in 4 years.... Can't wait to see that! Haha
-- Posted from my iPhone
Soooo... It all starts around 6 years ago. I was in sec 2 and I was in the school's orchestra but around December I learned that keeping playing the flute would only make my orthodontist treatment more painful so I had no choice to change instruments. After a talk with my music teacher, it was decided that I would start in january to play bass.
There was already a bass player and he was quite popular. People in my class thought I changed instruments because I was jealous so people started picking on me until the teacher cleared up the situation in class. But one guy kept pushing me around, stealing my music sheets and calling names.
In the meantime, F, would never talk to me so I was convinced he was behind the bullying and I started to really really hate him.
Finally came summer.
When school started again, F, started to talk to me and he was being nice to me. I doubted his intentions at first but I found out later that he had nothing to do with the guy who was picking on me so we slowly became friends, abd later I developped a crush on him.
I was then crushed at the end of the year when I learned he was was moving to France. I was really really sad. The next year he came to our Xmas concert and I remember crying backstage in my best friend's arms saying: " why does he have to be here tonight? Can't he just let me forget about him before showing up like that? "
Somehow we kept contact via msn... I don't really know how it happened or when because I never had his email when we were in school together.
He recently came back to live in Montreal and to go to UdeM we've been talking a lot since then and he confessed to me that except for another classmate from the orchestra, I'm the only friend he has left. In 4 years, most of his bandmates and closest friends stopped taking to him. It was the opposite with me; we talked more and more when he left.
I feel very confused right now; all these emotions from years ago are still a bit around. You can't just erase someone your heart. And to know that I'm one of the o my perso left for him makes me feel very special... I never imagined he would say that because he's bit that kind of person... He kinda has the same personnality has Ryo-chan! I swear, he's a meanie and he plays bass ( bass is a guitar FYI)... Abd he's chibi!
Aaaaaaaaaah confusion!
Anyway I can't wait to see him... He said he grew up a bit in 4 years.... Can't wait to see that! Haha
-- Posted from my iPhone
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